More and More I feel like the time I spent with nixx was more of a curse than a blessing, not that she done anything wrong...that was me.
I think I grew used to always being in a relationship and always having someone there, I simply cannot get used to being alone knowing no-one cares about me and no-one is missing me, my life used to have direction, go to college and do a course i dont enjoy, get a job i wouldnt enjoy, buy a house and marry the girl i loved...simple.
Now i wake up each day and wander through the hours until its time to sleep again.
I wish Nixx and I hadn't met until now or simply had not met.
On a lighter note I had my closest friends from around here over for 6 nights this week which was awesome! Bob and I completed all 50 waves on Horde (Woot).
The coffee took a beating though so now im back to cheap shit...those bastards!
Opted not to sleep last night as Id just sleep all day so Ill just push through and hit the bed at like 10 tonight...or 9 as Ill most likely be zombied by then!
Laptop of DOOM has decided I cannot do anything besides open Google Chrome...even then it isn't happy about it.
Evidently T.V at 7am is awful.
Think i might experiment with my look today if nothing else is going on. Helen said "see you tomorrow" when she was leaving though so heres hoping it wasnt just a goodbye and we are actually meeting up!
"I tear my heart open just to feel"
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